OMG i really suck at updating the blog. i think i just got bored of our own story. like everyone was ok yea we get it. the cancer, the oncology appointments, the ct scans, ... i have trouble keeping up with it all myself. like i think we are on cancer auto-pilot mode. just please steer us to the next step so we can hurdle it successfully. okay sweet, mission accomplished. NEXT... okay phew we dodged that bullet, figured out that insurance snafoo, ooops we accidentally tossed out a $350 full bottle of chemo pills when we cleaned our pantry (true story and yes i cried i was so mad!), ok order new bottle... check that off the list. and ok yuckie its time for that dreaded scan where Mark can't be around the baby for 5 very long days... OK no problem, make many plans to be at my mom's house that week. a lil' wine and some of Diane's lasagna and I am back on track. Phewie. its like i have gotten too good at dodging the bullets, manuevering this whole situation that when i do stop to reflect, I get scared out of my mind. if someone told me the story of me, i'd be like ohhhh that poor woman how does she do it. mmmm my secret ... at least one cute top per week from Forever21 (retail therapy when used in moderation is amazing) and my girlfriends. these poor women have heard me recount this situation over and over in great detail.... and most importantly Mark is my strength. because really his strength amazes me. And i just want him and Jonathan to be proud of me and know that I am doing the best I can. when i pause and think what if i were the one with this disease i completely freak out, i really have zero clue how he pulls it together. I look up to him.
Thanks for reading my ramble.
Peace out,
Jenna
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I love reading your ramble!! I truly look up to both of you...perhaps for different reasons but I do!! I hold you both in such admiration on how you deal with this situation and your daily lives!!
love you all!!
Mom (Diane)
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